[1] Sleep deprived as fuck

EDIT: (04/01/22)

 I still haven't uploaded the No Way Home video to YouTube. OH. MY. FUCKING. GOD. I can't stop procrastinating when I just have to reupload it. I did complete the site, though!

DATE: 12/24/21

7:30 AM
So, I'm sleepy as fuck, having failed to sleep in excess of 24 hours. I didn't intend to sleep so little. I got really busy yesterday, falling behind schedule on several projects. Most people understand the consequent feeling you gain from missing due dates. It's anxiety-inducing, albeit in the exciting, motivating "I urgently must work!" kinda way. That feeling's where I am normally at my most productive. Then again, it feels like I'm constantly neck-deep in procrastination, which is an uncomfortable and deflating feeling. Correction: not even just a feeling; I am outright procrastinating and it annoys me to no end. Lmfao. All I am good at doing is the bare minimum in life. I'm like the one kid who knows how to float at a pool and does nothing else.

I made this damn blog when I should be sleeping, livestreaming, or basically anything else. Good on me, I suppose. At least I'm not one of those people who do nothing; I simply spread myself out over 50-million projects and wonder why I never succeed at my personal goals. I feel like shit but I started drinking this caffeinated thingy. Shit's refueling me like crazy. It's completely sick... until I inevitably crash like an inebriated driver who's suffer from lifelong substance addiction (horribly).

The agenda today:
• sleep
• livestream a reading
• work out again
• make a TikTok (waiting to use the "Happy Holidays!" one because Christmas)
• upload a video I made about No Way Home to YouTube
• visit an electronics retailer
• etcetera

Yeah, I'm not doing shit today after I catch up. My Christmas will be well warranted.

I made a cool microedit for myself (the banner; GIF unrelated), growing beyond old social media art I previously used. It's pretty cool. I'll paste my super basic edit before I go back to doing shit. Will possibly update my adventure later. Maybe not. I don't know. I'll write that I started this blog at 7:30 AM to ensure I have chronological mapping on the chance that I return for an update. 

Oh, yeah: here's the art (depicted originally under text but changed). It's simple but clean (no reference intended). I was going to use it as the banner for this post but the fucking text on this website lacks a stroke feature, which is necessary for visual contrast. Holy fuck, that's so stupid. Anyways, let me get back to doing shit.